Monday Morning

I set it up so I could post from work.

I've had lots of things to say lately but they occur to me when I'm
elsewhere or I'm not able to put the thought down to where it makes
sense.

I said the other week in an email to a friend that I feel like I'm on
the outside looking in. This has happened to me at various over the
years but it's usually a feeling of not being part of the ''in'' crowd.
Lately though it has seemed more of just being an observer of life.
Not a participant.
I've been wondering what causes me to feel this way and I believe that
it is everything. Every little thing that happens effects me.
Some things have a negative effect and others have a positive.
Lately it seems that more negatives have been occurring so I think I'm
trying to distance myself from all things in order to avoid the
negatives.

I went out for Boney Fingers on Saturday and had a good time. I knew it
was something that I needed. To be amongst friends.

A sort of self-preservation.

I quit watching the news years ago because it was always so negative
and I found myself despising humans. For the most part it worked.


Break is over...