Fun Pic.

I 'm on the tracks behind my Mom's.
Been wanting to do a pic like this and I've been down for the past couple of days so I thought I'd go out and be creative...try and brighten my mood.
It sucks when you know how good life is but you find yourself in a funk anyway.
Had a nice drive in the van jammin GD 12-30-86.
Sarah and I went out to eat. Keith is at work and said he'd be eating there.
I really like that pic...I'll have to do more, maybe involving more people.

I'm working Saturday 4:30am to 1:00pm. Sarah needs a new bike and the money is being provided.
Did some reconditioning of units at work the past couple of days. Most of them had gas in the tanks that we had to drain out so several of us got free tankfuls of gas. $40 worth for me :-)

Boney Fingers
Is playing in Ixonia this Saturday night. I hope for a good turnout.

Another weekend gone by. I didn't do what I had to do. I did what I wanted to. Maybe I'll write more later...

Monday morning is here. I had various dreams of being late for work last night. Looks like I'm gonna be on time.
Went to church with my brothers yesterday. The church library was named after my Mother.
The sermon was good and we went out for food afterwords

Off to work I go...

I don't know whether to be happy or sad when I find a note I left on a plate of cookies for my Mom over 2 years ago.

It's hump day !!
I've got a sign in the back window of the van that says DO NOT HUMP THIS CAR.
I found it on the train tracks.
I called a childhood friend on his birthday and got the answering machine so I called back the next day and talked for quite awhile. I haven't seen him since Keith was a baby.
The picture is my Mom's living room or at least how it looks now that we're going through things.
I wish I had walked through her house with the camera before we started moving and removing things.
Spent some time out there the other night. Very reflective...so I cranked up some Dead and cracked open a beer.
Work is being it's usual self. Stress on / Stress off
Hoping to catch some acoustic Boney Fingers this weekend. Dennis said he will email me when he gets the info.
Sarah has my Mom's bed. It's a nice bed and a definite upgrade for her. I'm still on the floor...maybe I'll meet someone with a nice bed...
Veggie fajitas for dinner tonight. Tomorrow is Catfish Thursday.
Briggs just started payroll deduction saving bonds at work so I signed up for $300 a year. 10 weeks before I get one. I'll post a pic when I get it.
My house plants are still doing their thing. I'm quite happy for them. I think the Jade wants some water. The leaf thingies start looking wrinkled when it wants water.
Still trying to get my room cleaned...I regained control of the kitchen but the bedroom (floorroom) still resists my attempts at organization. I do have a new really cool huge ass poster hanging on the wall. It GD related not a shot of a butt.
The clouds were really cool when I was out earlier but I didn't have my camera with me and when I got home I don't like the fact that to my west is a video store.
I'd like to relax on a blanket in a field listening to a show from '73...
Need more relaxation...stress kills the self.

Later...

Looks like a bright Sunday :)
Wish I had someone to share my morning walk with. There was a funny squirrel on Main St. but he wouldn't hold still to have his pic taken.
Going out to Mom's today to go through stuff and do some laundry.

Today went great. Tomorrow may be a different story but I'll take it when I can get it.
Have to be to work at 4:30 am tomorrow and I work till 3:30 pm. Then it's off to Madison for The Del McCoury Band which starts at 8:00 pm.
Saturday I have to be to work at 5:30 am and I get off at 3:30 pm. Gonna be a long one.

I had the song How Great Thou Art ! stuck in my head at work. I kept chasing it out with The Monkey and the Engineer. Didn't need to ponder loss.

Making some Chimichongas for dinner.

I need to clean the living room...


I took this pic at Parfrey's Glen. I need to get out more. My weekends always seem to have something going on and I don't get to just wander.

Well here it is another Wednesday evening. I've seen about 1994 of them. There has been many that were better and I'm sure there are quite a few that were worse.
I wanted to post something yesterday but the pc was acting funny...
It's my niece Azure Dee's birthday today but I did not see her and I don't know where she lives. I hope all is well for her.

I feel like something isn't right. My shoulders are awfully tense. I sometimes wonder if I will ever feel right again. It makes me wonder if it's caused by Mom dying or if there is deeper dark currents running. Before Mom went into the hospital I think I remember feeling quite good. Maybe I'm wrong but that's how it seems to me.
I slept for 3 hours this evening. Guess I was tired after work.

Mew is running around with a paper ball taking turns chasing it or carrying it in his mouth. He is so much the orange tabby cat. Soon he will be telling me it's bedtime.

Cracked open a Point beer to take some of the edge off of my neck.



Work was horrible stress today. I hate model changes. Maybe that's why I feel so outta whack. The changeover started yesterday and finished this morning.
I find that when I'm down/stressed like this that it seems I've been this way forever and I'll be this way forever. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you're facing the wall.

I coined a phrase at work on Tuesday. I told a friend that I have been out of whack for a bit and that I needed to get ''Back in Whack''.
Here's to hoping that all of us whacked out people can get ''Back in Whack''

Bedtime it is...

Wildflower seed on the sand and stone
May the four winds blow you safely home.

Very strange weekend camping. Some things were very good, some things were very bad, and some things just left ya wondering why. It was quite the full weekend. Rather distressed today at work over some of the things that happened. I'm glad I don't know what the future brings for it would prevent me from enjoying the now. Got some house cleaning done and even threw some stuff away. Making some fish and fries for dinner tonight.

A picture of Mom :)

My oh my what a dragged out day. Work went good but I felt stressed all day. Was worried for a bit that I was going to have an anxiety attack. It took 2 years to feel ok after the demise of my marriage and now that Mom has gone the random depression has come back. I'll never get over Mom being gone but I do need to learn how to deal with it. It could be worse...both things could have happened at once. Weekends almost here ! I think I may make it. Got the houseplants watered today. It was fun and they are happy. Time to feed the kids...maybe I'll make it down to the brewpub for a pint :)

Good day today. Minor stress at work nothing too great. Went out looking for a pic. This is a spring you can only see when the river is low. Listening to Pink Floyd 11-21-69 that I got last night. Gonna make some tacos for dinner. Hope the weekend proves to be what I want.

Wednesday morning at 5 o'clock when the day begins...(really I have to be there at 5:30)
Gotta start being to work on time. Received my ''Official'' verbal warning yesterday. Rather depressed all day yesterday. Doing laundry in the evening helped me feel better and I got the van cleaned. I need to wash it with a bucket of soapy water. It's got some kinda haze thing goin on. Looking forward to the weekend. Music, friends, and camping.

Spent 5 hours at Mom's going through stuff. Owen was there aswell. Brought my discman in to play CD's on the stereo. It's much nicer when you have tunes going. The pic is the first time I've ever seen a mushroom growing on a tree. Seen lotsa fungus but never a shroom.

Went out to my brothers yesterday. Did allot of countryside cruising. Came home and fed Sarah then we went out to Owen's for a campfire. Kevin and Ronda came out and brought Jessica. We all hung out till after 3am. It was rather nice. Some minor talk about Mom but nothing too deep. Keith has been off with friends all weekend. I expect him home today.

Spent the day with the daughter.
Sarah and I started our day with some ice drinks from the coffee shop down the street.
We worked our way out to Madison and did some thrifting with limited success.
Spent some time down on State St. after finding a miracle parking spot.
We both had a good time.
This shot is from a local public hunting grounds that I like to go to with a camera.
Sunsets are finite.

Sarah and I went to Milwaukee last night and saw Robert Randolph & The Family Band.
We also got to see Los Lonely Boys. The bands were on adjoining stages so we hopped back and forth.
We got to hear the Boys play Sarah's favorite song by them.

I stopped at Owen's on the way home and talked about life...didn't get home till 3:30 in the morning.

Sarah and I are going to Lake Mills for some steamed corn on the cob and we may go out to Madison. I wish I had a car with good gas mileage...

I'll have to get myself a small car when Mom's estate is settled.

These mushrooms come up in my landlady's yard.
At one time there was a large tree in this spot.