Christmas is gone.
I've never been a big fan of this holiday due to the expectations put forth by society.

This year was worse than others.

Here's to next year. May it be all that we need.

Perception of time is weird.

It would be nice to be young and have an understanding of life and how

quickly it goes by.

I couldn't believe how good the flowers smelled last spring. It was

like I had never smelled them before. To think of all the years that

have rushed past and what's worse is that it still happens.

It would be nice to sit in a meadow and ''be'' for awhile.



I jump to 3 weeks vacation this year. Maybe I'll find some meadow

days.

Monday Morning

I set it up so I could post from work.

I've had lots of things to say lately but they occur to me when I'm
elsewhere or I'm not able to put the thought down to where it makes
sense.

I said the other week in an email to a friend that I feel like I'm on
the outside looking in. This has happened to me at various over the
years but it's usually a feeling of not being part of the ''in'' crowd.
Lately though it has seemed more of just being an observer of life.
Not a participant.
I've been wondering what causes me to feel this way and I believe that
it is everything. Every little thing that happens effects me.
Some things have a negative effect and others have a positive.
Lately it seems that more negatives have been occurring so I think I'm
trying to distance myself from all things in order to avoid the
negatives.

I went out for Boney Fingers on Saturday and had a good time. I knew it
was something that I needed. To be amongst friends.

A sort of self-preservation.

I quit watching the news years ago because it was always so negative
and I found myself despising humans. For the most part it worked.


Break is over...

Well...

I think I will post my photos here Photoblog
I find that sometimes I have a photo to post and nothing to say and of course it goes the other way.

Went to see Boney Fingers in Racine last Friday night. had a nice time but I was in a bit of a weird mood.
Drove up to Milwaukee the next morning to take some photos and my camera batteries died... and so it goes...
Mom's stone has been set. Now I need a sunny day and good batteries to go snap a picture of it.



Things are drifting for me. Maybe I'm putting my life on hold till spring...
I went for a foggy walk through a cemetery after work the other day.
Pondering the beautiful people and the lives they lived. The huge stones with last names unkown.
Soldiers who gave their life and babies that never had a name. Very strange.
When I was younger I remember how important certain things were and now that I have aged a few years I realize that those things didn't matter much after all. I'm sure that years from now I will look back on this time and think the same.
So my current thought is that after we die do we look back on the lives that were lived and think how little they mattered in the grand scheme of things...

Had a couple of Christmas Ales from Goose Island and now my thoughts are scrambled. Posted a pic from my cemetery walk.
I need to quit holding my breath for the future and live in the now but I'm missing something from my now and so I hope for the future. All good things in all good time.